I am still in a holding pattern. I will readily admit that this is something I am not good at. I mentally do so much better with a plan; a goal; a purpose. To do lists are some of my favorite things. Right now, I'm waiting to see if I have a job. I interviewed two weeks ago and I was thinking it was my best shot, so I have not applied for any other jobs. Maybe that isn't the smartest thing. Maybe it is. Only time will tell.
So I spend my time right now doing
pretty much what I want to do. Read, watch TV, go for long walks, go through my boxes to try to decide what things I still want to own, write in my journal, play on the internet. Sound a little bit like heaven? Yes, it should be. Except, like I say above, I do better with some pressure. I feel like I don't have any kind of foundation.
I am learning to live without a master plan and be OK with that. To realize that things that are meant to be---will be. To just go with whatever happens. The last few days have been good days. Maybe I am finally relaxing into life. I sure hope so. It's hard to go against the universe.
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