I just don't know

Where do I go from here? What's next for me?

I received a call from Ferris today, letting me know that I did not get the job I interviewed for. I knew it wasn't a slam dunk, but I had thought I had a pretty good chance. And I admit, I was mentally listing the things that would change if I got the job. I would get to move into my own apartment. I would be able to spend a little bit of money on non-essential things. Those plans are completely out of the window.

I was waiting to see how Ferris played out before applying to other positions. I need to fire up the resume machine. I need to start searching. I need to move forward. I need to figure out my next right step.

A good thing is that I am OK. Financially and emotionally. I am disappointed, yes. I think I had it in my head that the Ferris job was a perfect fit because of timing and the people. I was....wrong (quick, write it in the calendar). But, I do believe God has a plan for me. I have no idea what it is, but I'm trying to relax and trust in the bigger picture. I'll do everything I can and then expect God to work on the things only He can.